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As of 20 minutes ago I am DONE WITH SCHOOL. I will never have to go to a classroom. I will never have to purchase textbooks. I will never have to take another exam. I will never have to stress/procrastinate over bullshit deadlines over subjects I couldn’t care less about. I will never have to stress about scheduling my entire life around an uncomfortable class schedule. I will never again have to pay money to receive my education from inept, obtuse, and doltish professors.

I am done with college. I am no longer a student. 

Hello real life.

Decisions

I told my parents that I’m going to decline attending my graduation ceremony. I think it’s a huge waste of time and I don’t need the pat on the back in regards to such a trivial accomplishment. They are absolutely livid.

College has been the most expensive mistake I have ever made in my life. At the time of my enrollment I didn’t know what I wanted to really do. I was brainwashed into thinking that I wanted to go to DePaul for a business degree followed up by law school. (HA!)

About a year into it I realized I hated all of that bullshit. I still didn’t know what I wanted to do in life but I knew I never wanted to work some desk job and I didn’t want to do a job that I didn’t love.

A year of soul searching and I realized that my “childish” dream to act or sing may not be so stupid. Money has never been important to me. I could do this. I have no inclination to be famous, so it’s not like I have some lofty expectations. The problem is that I can’t sing very well, so acting it is.

Fast forward to now. I will graduate college in March, with a degree in psychology and a second degree in communications in hand. 5 years after I started this excruciatingly long and worthless journey I am finishing it.

The thought of walking during graduation seems like a last spit in the face. I only stayed in college as a final thank you to my parents, for all of the things I’ve put them through in my childhood. But for me to go listen to some asshole talk for two hours before getting a $100,000 piece of paper that I would have been much better without… it just seems painful. I rather just forget that I wasted 5 years of my life and move on.

Work vs pleasure

I feel like I have been overworked over the last 3 months in terms of acting. I am currently enrolled in 3 performance classes. That coupled with the fact that I have worked on some sort of student film every week for the last 2 months. 

At times I feel mentally exhausted and drained. But finals week starts this Monday and then comes the week of spring break. I feel like I need to rest and just take my mind of things, but just the thought of not working is making me antsy. 

Maybe that’s a sign that I’m doing something I love instead of just doing a ‘job’. I’m going to be 23 this month, and I know that life will only get harder from here, but I feel like I am on the right path.

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So I just got back to Chicago.

To my surprise I was just briefed by everyone that we might have 27 inches of snow by Wednesday. I don’t mind it, but still, what lame timing to return to cold weather.

Also, I don’t know what Y2K was like in America, but holy hell… There are lines nearly going out of supermarkets. People are buying up every piece of food they can get. 

Home sweet home.

Finals

Yesterday was my last day of class. For some reason I thought that DePaul gives us a week off like a lot of colleges do before final exam week. 
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I guessed wrong. Exams start tomorrow. 
Hooray.  

School

Tomorrow I have (hopefully) my last first day of school - EVER.
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A year from now I want to have my degree (as useless as it will be for me) and be on my way to LA to start my life as a full time actor. :)
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Tomorrow, DePaul University. A year from tomorrow - LA!
I can dream though, right?